Dear J,

It's not fair. I was so sure I was over you. Please stop making me feel like this all over again. I'm so tired of this game we play, I can't do it again. I told you that I would be the one that would get hurt, and look what's happened to me now. I miss you so much, but I don't deserve to feel that. I am a despicable person that left you when you were at your lowest, and now I'm paying for it. But I was so sure I'd made the right decision.  And I can't tell you any of this, because even if I did, I know what you'll say. And even if you don't, I can't do this to you again. But why do I keep acting as if to bring up that question.

I don't deserve a second chance, yet why did Kevin get so many.