Dear J,

You know, I didn't realise just how much I needed to talk to you honestly and openly. I'm glad I was able to do that. It's strange, I still care deeply for you, and likely will for another while yet, but this inability to talk to you without feeling my world is collapsing around me is gone. I don't know if I'll ever understand why you chose to forgive me. Its possible you don't really understand it either. I guess I'm just glad that my worst case scenario, that we never speak again, is no longer on the table.

I miss you, and that's okay. But I don't feel dependent on you anymore. Thank you for releasing me.

M